I love coffee. I love chocolate. I love running. In these and anything else we love, there is tension. We all learn at some point too much of a good thing may NOT be a good thing. How we utilize our favorite things and activities can lead us to a more holistic and gratifying life. And just as easily to an unhealthy dependency.
I am messy, inconsistent, and undisciplined at times (you can add Zach to this, too). But I believe stories and experiences create meaningful connections. So here is my authentic reveal with all of you.
The Raw Truth about My Running
I freaking love to run. You probably share this enjoyment if you are taking time to read the blog. Admittedly, I’ve been overdoing it (according to what my body–and Zach–is telling me). Overuse injuries are common among runners but can be extremely informative. It is the body saying, “HEY! Stop a minute!” Do I always listen? No. (I also struggle to turn down an extra cup of coffee or dessert.) Self-control is hard!
For as much as running has helped me, I have also misused it. A lot.
I’ve used running to procrastinate.
I’ve used running to mask insecurity.
I’ve used running to avoid relationships.
I’ve used running to escape obligations.
I’ve used running to inflate my identity.
I’ve used running to suppress emotion.
This list is hard for me to review and read again. It reminds me of my weaknesses and reveals past and even present failures. It reminds me how running can and has at times become unhealthy and unbalanced.
However, in all the same areas listed above, it also has a lot of potential to be a powerful aid in growth and fulfillment. I can also see how each of these areas can grow or improve through running.
I’ve used running to procrastinate. → I can use running to increase productivity.
I’ve used running to mask insecurity. → I can use running to center myself.
I’ve used running to avoid relationships. → I can use running to build relationships.
I’ve used running to escape obligations. → I can use running to structure priorities.
I’ve used running to inflate my identity. → I can use running to pray and meditate.
I’ve used running to suppress emotion. → I can use running to process emotion.
You can peruse the internet and follow more put-together people with tips about everything under the sun. Ironically we only promise you the opposite of perfect- our lives are messy and we have not “arrived.” We will listen, live, and learn to give you the best we’ve got as you follow us.
Live life. Run.